Muddling Through

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All in all, I’m not feeling too awful. I hadn’t had a great time sleeping, but once I’d figured out my feet haven’t been warm since… I can’t remember, it was time for some socks. I usually can’t sleep with socks on, but my feet liked this, and I slept like the proverbial log. I thought I should look online to see if I could find some slippers. Not an easy thing in August. I may stick with the socks with the trippy bottoms for now.

I was miserable last night. I had a couple of days where I had slept for 20 hours or so, and my meds were all screwed up. My knee kept popping out, my face and head hurt, my back hurt, I had cramps, I couldn’t remember anything, and I was lonely.  I was whining to my husband that I couldn’t get comfortable, and I was freezing. I wanted more pillows, and he got this happy look on his face. Apparently, he had purchased all these pillows and didn’t know what to do with them. So he immediately piled four pillows on me and produced three from under the bed. Such comfort!

My sheets are so gross and smelly. I’ve been so sick, husband hasn’t been able to get me out long enough to change them. This weekend. I am so excited! The kids’ bedding is changed every week, but I’m always asking him to leave it just one more week, we will be fine! Ugh.

I am so tired these days. The heat, the pain, not moving, the stress. It adds up. I’m usually better after my shots, but I haven’t heard from the clinic yet. I’m not eating as much, either. I get weighed on the weekend, usually, too.

Today it’s mostly my head, my back, and my pubic bone giving me trouble. My knees are acting up when I get up to use the washroom. I try to straighten them and they pop and crack, quite painfully, as you see the patella slide around, or it knocks sideways before sliding into place. God, it hurts.  I’m trying to rehydrate. Last night I had the worst case of dry mouth. It’s probably from all that time asleep. I should have taken in some water. Thunder storms and rain today. The big stick that pokes my wounds.

My boy is a grouchy today. His sister is being sweet to me. I was thinking just yesterday how I will missthem when school starts. Check that. Not the fighting. Sigh.

As long as my feet are warm, I’m sleepy. So it’s naptime. I’m nodding off.

Netflix and Nausea

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My Zebra Strong tee arrived! Booster.com helps charities with fundraising, so they are a cool place to check out.

The past couple of days have been interesting. Yesterday morning I accomplished quite a bit. I cleaned a bit of my bed area and my outstanding computer files. I’m transitioning from a Yahoo address to a gmail, so I did some of that.

I napped all afternoon.

I’ve been watching a lot of Netflix. Mostly Documentaries, interspersed with Embarrassing Bodies, which mostly involves sexually harassing the male doctor, but I’m alone in my room, he can’t hear. ☺

My head hurts. I couldn’t keep down breakfast. I’m almost used to this pain now.

My memory gets really lousy as the day goes on. It’s awful. I did go on a journal spending spree and got some nice ones!

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There are some dotted pens. They are cute! I bought a proper Address Book. I won’t have to fire up the computer every time I need an address! There were three plain journals, and two holographic/iridescent journals. I’m in love with holographic or iridescent products. ❤

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Pretty! And, of course, you can see the reflection of the ring light.

It’s been thunderstorms like crazy here! 😮

I’m incredibly bored, so I’ve made Amazon my bitch, and it’s giving my husband heart palpitations. I’m terrible, I can never do just one thing at a time. The tv is on, but I have to be futzing on my tablet or organizing a drawer or writing a list… I need to Zen more. I should slow it down.

Although I felt awful today, I’m feeling better than I was this morning. My back doesn’t hurt as much, my head is okay. I might try a quick look.

It’s amazing how your pain can change. I know I’m delicate today, though. My abdomen is threatening cramps if I’m not careful. Is that the Endometriosis acting up?

Today will be quiet, with some masking, skincare, Netflix, naps, photos, and maybe a makeup look if I can.

Moving slowly, though. No need to rush!

Hope you have a great weekend!

 

 

Oh! No! More Fuckery!

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Remember how I said I clench my jaw when in pain? Ha! Ha! I woke up yesterday with a chunk missing from one of my crowns. It hurts like hell when I eat and misfire.

Hubby called my dentist right away (he’s on call) and we giphy9decided I could hang in until Tuesday after my shots. Combination of convenience of everyone, me getting some lidocaine in my jaw before lying there with my mouth open for hours, and the probability of me getting up the stairs. The dentist asked me if I needed pain relief. I laughed. He called me back in the afternoon to check up on me, he wanted to make certain I could make it to Tuesday, still. Also his best tech is on then. It makes things go quickly. See why I’m so reluctant to leave? He also mentioned it is a medium sized cavern, now that he’d checked the records. It’s work we had done about 10 years ago. Ten years? With my grinding? Woah.

I’m also being fitted for a mouth guard. I asked for two, fully intending to pay, because it’s worth the number of times I drop it and can’t reach it and then can’t nap until my husband gets home, or drop it and can’t rinse it. My dentist was all excited about this new tougher guard, so my husband will have to try to explain. I don’t think he even heard me.

 

Today is my son’s 13th birthday! I am the mother of teenagers now! Woah, I’m old. Ha ha! When I was young, I never imagined myself this old. I just didn’t! So weird…

I can’t wait for cake!

 

Have a wonderful day Zebras! 😘

Still Flu-ish

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Still not feeling quite so amazing this morning. I’m feeling weak, like everything takes effort. I’m kind of hungry, so I tried some crackers, but they tasted like ashes, and upset my stomach. Why would a few crackers give me gas pains? I have no idea.

So I lay around this morning and looked at catmemes. I am downloadfiletrying to convince myself to go back to sleep, but I am pretty bored with that idea. I’m pretty bored with doing nothing but sleeping. There are a ton of books I have lined up here. I have new makeup on its way, and gorgeous lashes to try. I have my Beauty Blog post to do for tomorrow. But… I can barely move. I think the only solution, since I’ve been trying to get it together enough to turn the TV on for an hour and a half now is, to give in. Sleep, and when I wake up it will be time then to reevaluate.  I know I’m bored as hell, but what else can I do now?

Hope you are having more fun, Zebra friends! 😷

Wonderful Things

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My family has been treating me so wonderfully the past couple of weeks. Let’s enumerate the wonderful things they’ve done for me:

My husband:

  • Has gone to the post office to retrieve numerous packages for me
  • Has found the money to allow me to shop my brains out, since it’s just about the only thing I have time and patience for. Plus Zebra outfits!
  • He brought home French Fries for me even though they were out of his way and it was late at night and he was tired
  • He got out of the warm shower to grab me a barf bucket
  • He watched an episode of South Park just because I asked
  • He has run so many errands for me, I can’t even count them!

 

My Daughter, 15

  • She has been filling my water bottles regularly
  • Listening to my exciting stories even when she’s bored
  • Checking up on me to make sure I have everything
  • Bringing me breakfast during the week

 

My Son, 13 in 6 days!

  • He has been keeping my water bottles full
  • He has been spending time with me, like the two hours last night where he snuggled and watched TV and chatted
  • Remembering not to hug me without asking, because I’m so sore
  • Bringing my coffee in the morning on weekends

 

My family has been awesome. Except for:

 

Husband:

  • Forgetting about me in the bathtub and nobody hearing me yelling about getting the shower head down, so I had to wash my hair under the tap. It was a bit uncomfortable, but not the end of the world. I did have fun teasing him about it, though! 😄

I prefer to get help in and out of the tub as I’ve been so shaky lately.  I don’t need that much assistance, just someone to ‘catch’ me, really, if I start to go over. Or call 9-1-1 if I pass out. I’m still so weak from whatever is going on with me.

I hope you enjoyed my glimpse into my family. Are you interested in my Sephora Haul? I can either show a photo here, or link my Beauty Blog post. Let me know.

 

Stay healthy Zebras! 😘

 

 

Things I Miss

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  • Coke. The cola kind. Not that I drank a lot of it, but once in a while it’s a nice treat.
  • Regular ice cream. Lactose free is okay, but I’d like some random ice cream. That I stopped for on a walk.
  • Walks
  • Exercise
  • Doughnuts
  • Working and feeling accomplished
  • Having intelligent conversation
  • Having a conversation where I’m not the object of pity, but I realize this is going to go on for a while until I am feeling better. I don’t mind that people are concerned for me, I appreciate that, it’s the tongue clucking I get uncomfortable with.
  • A night out with the girls
  • Going to the movies
  • A milkshake
  • Getting a hug without it hurting
  • Go shopping

 

Things I’ve always wanted to do:

  • Have a weekend away with my husband
  • Go back to school
  • Go dancing

 

These are just some of the things I’ve been missing out on lately. Truly, having my husband come to bed an hour earlier to snuggle, or maybe if I could shake this exhaustion I’d be happier. I see my doctor on Thursday, so not long now. Someone will wake me in time.

Hope you had a good weekend, Zebras! 😘

Not Having Fun!

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Well this is a fine kettle of wax. Or ball of fish. My treatment appointment is actually on the 13th of June. I’m not pleased. My head is hurting again, as is my back. And it started about a week early, too. I kept saying I think it’s next week or the week after. I vaguely remembered it was after my boys birthday, which is on the 11th, and I was mildly upset I wouldn’t be feeling well on his birthday.

However, I see the same doctor on the 8th for a consultation. Perhaps it’s better I’m unmedicated by Botox. That way he can see what is really going on.  I will need to discuss with husband my goals and wishes for the appointment, because he will need to summarize and translate, likely. I’m in bad shape. If I spend any time not on my side – ie in any other position, I get a headache and nausea and back spasms. The headache isn’t bad, but the jaw pain is. I’m a grinder of teeth. I do wear a mouth guard when I sleep, but it needs replacing. I just have not been well enough.

It feels like there is a point at the back of my head, and when I’m lying on it, it’s wearing down or bruised? It hurts, but it’s the only way other parts are comfortable. I will roll over and nap soon. My husband thinks I should sleep all day. I haven’t been sleeping at night. I’ve been having good naps from 4:00 to 8:00.

When my neck gets all stiff and sore, and my head hurts and my skull hurts, my cognition gets totally screwed. I honestly giphycan’t reason, it’s such a bizarre feeling. On top of that, I can barely remember the words for most things. Yet, I lie down for a while, it has to be on my side and things get much better. If it’s raining, though, things are almost intolerable. The pain is always bad. Turning my head too quickly is a nightmare. The symptoms get worse the longer I am not on my side, too. I can feel the pain ramping, so I will be going to have that nap now.

My son’s birthday is coming up and I need to prep for my doctor appointment, so if I don’t touch base or check in, I’m rationing my time as much as I can. Know I’m thinking of you, I will be in touch when I can.

I was going to type something and it’s gone from my head. I hate this feeling. It’s not me at all. My husband said ‘it happens to lots of people!’ Not to me!

Oh yeah! It’s funny, my pain always seems to ramp up towards Friday. My Mom said I used to do this as a child, too – I would wait until the weekend to get sick. Hmmm…

Be well Zebra pals! 😘