Upsetting News

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Ugh. My husband called the pain clinic to harass them about my not getting callbacks. When he listened to the Clinics outgoing message, he learned that my doctor, the head of the clinic, is away indefinitely.

I’m frightened.

Firstly, he did not look at all well at our last appointment. He is quite overweight, and looked pale and well, grey.

Secondly, he is not a young man. Going by his graduation dates, he is in his late seventies to early eighties. He has been pushing himself hard, working at least five days a week at the clinic, and travelling all over the world lecturing on pain management. I do hope he is able to recover.

The clinic has assured us it is still running, but, selfishly, I have my shots in two? Weeks. Nobody is as talented as he is. I’m going to get some hesitating ass. Nightmare.

Currently I have referrals out to:

  • Neurologist
  • Gastroenterologist
  • The hand and knee specialists retired so I’m waiting for the EDS clinic.

My heart test came back, it was ‘grossly normal’. Now the EDS clinic has everything they need, and the Manager said we should hear from her within a month, if not to contact her to find out what is going on. I don’t expect an actual appointment, but a date gives me hope. ❤

My good friend is moving an hour and a half out of the city. I dont get to see him much anyway, but he was offred a great spot in a retirement home and he can’t pass it up. We talked for an hour last night and damn it cheered me up!

It’s just so hard to get together with people when you feel lousy, and your kids take over the house, it’s not that big to begin with, and you can’t even serve tea. You don’t want to treat your family as staff, but you want friends to yourself, but as adults, do they come over and hang out in your bedroom? What the hell, sure! 😂

I don’t like this change nonsense.

If you can pray for my doc, I’d appreciate it. I hope he just needs rest.

Growing Old Together

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Yesterday turned out to be quite hellacious for me, pain-wise. We’ve been having a lot of rain and intense storms, as has much of North America, I think? I’m very sorry, I can barely concentrate on what goes on in this room. It’s supposed to be a mixed bag this summer, from what I understand. Hot, cold, rainy, all over the place.

Back to yesterday, my treatment is coming up either Tuesday or the Tuesday after, my husband isn’t certain. Which means the last injections are wearing off a bit, it doesn’t always happen, but usually. My bet is on this Tuesday, since the low-level headache started on Sunday of last week. It’s usually the first sign my treatment is coming up. It’s not that bad, it’s like a mosquito buzzing, annoying, but livable.

Where were we? Yesterday. Thunderstorms were gathering all day, and I could feel that tension in the back of my head. It was not at all pleasant, and began to creep down my neck. It felt like I had something out-of-place and it was pressing? It hurt so much.

giphy31By 9:00 my husband came to bed, and I was really hurting. I was trying not to move my neck, and it was tough to think. I had my neck pillow holding me steady. It was like something was pressing on something leading to my brain, or, like Homer Simpson, I had a crayon up my nose.

We chatted for a bit, snuggling, and he tried to boop my nose, but missed by half an inch. He’s had problems with glaucoma, surgery last November. He closed his eye and tried for the boop again. He got it! It’s sobering to realize how much vision he’s lost, but we did have a laugh. We are quite the pair. For a good few minutes last night, our bedroom sounded like “oof” “ow” “ouch” “aaagh” “dang” “crud” “ugh” “ow”! How romantic! 😄

We did get some kissy-face in, nice in a thunderstorm. But it’s tough to be all romantic with your partner when your neck is stiff and your hands lock up into mannequin hands.

This was strange, because it’s never been this bad before. I do have problems with my hands. They get stiff and sore, and I haven’t been bracing them. I also haven’t been resting them as much as I should, doing all this typing. I have been feeling the stiffness quite a lot lately. I guess last night, with the rain and thunderstorm starting at 3:00 in the afternoon, just when the kids get out from school, naturally, and raining off and on until after midnight had something to do with it.

Of course, my daughter did not wear her new rain jacket and came home drenched, but my son did wear his! Bravo!

Of course my husband was amused by my predicament, and I pretended to run my mannequin hands through his hair. There was no point in doing movie banter, he hasn’t seen any movies. I pretended to run my mannequin hands over his face, and they were fairly numb at this point, and he was laughing so hard I was afraid we’d wake the kids. Besides, my stomach was hurting.

So he went to sleep, and I stayed up listening to the storm for a while longer while trying to relax. I wanted to see if relaxation would help whatever was wrong with my neck. Finally, I decided sleep was a better choice, and bailed.

This morning finds my neck much more flexible with little pain, but you can feel a background warning. I will keep the Voltaren handy! And ensure I keep relaxed. Deep breaths. I should check the weather…

Have a fantastic day Zebra friends! 😘