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I received an email this morning telling me that the reason my old pain management doctor was on leave was because he sexually assaulted three people and the College is calling for more stories. The clinic is being shut down. They didn’t hide their glee. They couldn’ t wait to lay their story on the College!

Look, I’ve heard the rumours. I’m horrified.  I’m disgusted. I don’ t know if there are any people out there who aren’t monsters. Yes, people. Women have been just as disgusting to me as men. Which is why I’m sitting here alone.

I really don’t understand why you have to clobber me repeatedly with the facts. I said I wasn’t sure what was happening, because I heard your version, everybody has heard your version, but the facts are playing out differently.

I am having appointment after appointment booked with… the new Head of the Wasser Pain Clinic? Dr. Peng! We go way back! He’s amazing! Very different from Dr. Gordon! Will this be permanent? Nobody knows yet.

What you don’t seem to understand, is that Dr. Gordon was always cordial to me. Was that because my husband was there? I don’t know. But he was the first person to listen to me. So I can’t throw him under the bus for a game of telephone. The first person to say he assaulted me, absolutely. I don’ t think he’s not capable of it. I just don’t lose my mind over non-verified conjecture. We are talking about a fifteen year relationship, here.

Anyway, moving forward, if anyone could show anyone else some compassion for losing their long term doctor, not being able to access care, that would be great. I sat here for three months not being able to sit up for more than fifteen minutes most days because my pain was so bad, and I couldn’t arrange to see anyone as he went on leave right before my appointment. If I sat up too long, I’d start puking.

I think if Dr. Peng is truly taking over, things will look completely different at Wasser, it will be like a breath of fresh air. The man is a genius! He is very strict, though. Doesn’ t like fatties. He treated me so differently this time around when I was skinny. 🙄 my only complaint.

I’m going to go process this some more. (Cry) I really only have to muddle through until April, when my appointment with the EDS clinic happens. I’m expecting big miracles from them!