Sucks to be Me

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Actually, I’m not a loser, but my body sure is.

My head and neck pain is back with a vengeance. The Botox injections I had for my migraines and body pain definitely did alleviate some of the pain I was feeling. My shots are now three weeks past due. I have not heard from the pain clinic, but my husband is in regular contact.

In addition, my back is spasming like it’s made for it. Topping things off, I’m having menstrual-type cramps like you wouldn’t believe. I’m essentially curled up in a ball most of the day.

Just like the week before my shots, I’m exhausted and sleep a lot. It’s quite defeating. I keep reminding myself the neurologist appointment is on October 2. Just over two weeks away. At least I will have a plan. I hope.

I’ve had to put my Beauty Blog on hiatus until October 5th.  It was such a tough decision to make, but I can’t provide quality at this time. I attempt to apply a face of cosmetics and I’m exhausted part way through. Ten minutes in. Add the photography, and content. I’m so exhausted. I’m so disappointed, as I really love that blog. I’m looking forward to my energy coming back.

My kids are struggling as well. I have another blog, because I have so much information for living with people with autism. Some anecdotes, some strategies, and some catastrophic challenges. Unfortunately, it’s been too much to get that started.

My daughter has either had the flu since the beginning of school, caught the flu twice, or is suffering anxiety. There has been a nasty flu going around, and I was at the ER, a great place for germs. My son has been refusing to attend classes, and been spending time in the office.

My husband, Angel that he is, has been holding everything together. He fell asleep last night with his tablet on his lap and dental floss in his mouth. Poor guy. He tries to stay up and entertain me, but 10:00 hit him hard. I managed to slip the floss out of his mouth and put his tablet away without waking him.

I’ve been sleeping most afternoons from 1 to 6 or 7 and then am up with my husband until midnight. He usually sleeps earlier. I wake up at 6 during the week and later on weekends. I’m sleeping a lot. It may be to escape the pain. I’m focusing on being right on time with my medication so I don’t have the pain build up. It really helps.

I’ve also been nesting. Any energy I have goes into organizing or reorganizing drawers in my bedroom, which is my comfortable space. I’ve bought dimmer light switches, mood lighting, decorative boxes to contain some of the clutter, a fuzzy zebra blanket, some cute file folders, and cute pencil boxes. I’m getting organized with style! Everything is within arms reach. I feel so cozy.

Even though my body is being a real jerk right now, life isn’t so bad. I’m quite happy and content, I just wish I had more energy to enjoy things more.

Hope you’re having a good day!

💜

I am a Staaaaaaar!

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I adore Bob’s Burgers.  So much that Archer is weird now.

I have been neglectful of my blogging responsibilities. I am sorry. I have been spending all weekend rearranging my living space with the assistance of my family. We are not quite done, because they move like turtles. Well, they did until we straightened some things out. I like to give orders 1 through 10 and have them completed. Now go away and leave me until I need you again or work on task X. We were working as I was giving an instruction and waiting for it. Ugh. No. We sorted through a ton of my makeup and skincare. I feel well organized, because if I can argue my way into a couple more steps, I will be quite independent.

I was going to do my blog about beauty today, but I decided to nap. I think it was a great idea, because I was out. From 3 until 6. But here I am at 1 am, exhausted and unable to sleep. I don’t understand. How does this keep happening? I try to stay up, I fall asleep out of exhaustion, just a bit, and I’m still awake! I see another sleep study in my future!

I finished my medicine from the infection I had on Saturday. I felt great! Unfortunately, my tongue is starting to tingle and swell and go numb again. My lips a bit, too. My husband is off tomorrow for his eye appointment.  I dont want him to drag me to the doctor. Besides. I don’t want to go. I’ve NEVER had anything weird like this before! I don’t want to be around any more sick people (acutely). (Contagious)

For those who spend much time in bed, how do you configure your kingdom? I wonder if some of my back pain is in my setup, and would love some ideas of what to change!

One of the things I was going to do was pick up a book instead of a tablet at this hour. I sensed my husband was semi awake. He is autistic, what they used to call Aspergers, though not formally diagnosed*. I asked if he had a book light. He asked if I was going to read. I replied exasperated “No, I’m going to perform a colonoscopy!” He shot back he’d get the better flashlight. Thing with him, though, and all autistic people are different, although some are similar, you don’t know if it was sleep mutter, deadpan humour, or strict logic.

*Our daughter was diagnosed in 7th or 8th grade and the staff all commented on how exactly alike they are. Eerily alike. They look alike, they think alike, yeah.

So that’s been what I’ve been up to. Someone else is walking around the house. Probably my daughter, the other Insomniac. She’s so tired during the day, too.  We should make a boys club and a girls club. The girls can sleep all day, the boys can bring us food when they have time, and they can go to work during the day and sleep at night. Our daughter and I will stay up and watch Netflix. 😂. Our son has daycamp. We should cross paths morning and evening. Oh, goodness, can you imagine? Shift Workers do it, and it must be great for those who are dedicated or wired that way. I’m not really sleeping at all, just four to five hours altogether. It’s not helping me fight whatever body is fighting. I spend hours just lying here resting. I used to be a 9 hour a night person. My whole life.

I hope you have a great sleep!

PS   Sorry I sound kind of grouchy. 🤐 I dont want to be around me either! 😄