Woke Up Like This

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This is me just after I woke up and took out my mouth guard and took off my CPAP machine and pulled off my sleep cap.  This is because my friends on Facebook were teasing me about looking pretty awesome even though it was hot and sticky and I felt awful. I thought this would be a good ‘Me at my worst’ photo.

There is actually a reason for my youthful facial appearance, and it has to do with EDS. Because of our faulty collagen, some of us do maintain quite a youthful appearance.  I’m not certain of the mechanics of it. But it’s a thing. Also, I’ve essentially been in a darkened room for 15 years, wear that damn sunscreen! And I look after my skin as a hobby.

There are some things I am not happy with, of course. I have a wattle under my chin. That may be from the 120 lb weight loss however. I’m exercising my face to try to lose that. I have a pronounced line around my neck that I dislike. My arms are a bit flabby, my boobs are really saggy, I would like a major reduction. My stomach is often bloated from gastroparesis, which I haven’t been officially diagnosed with, but I have. I would like my hair to stop thinning. And the really dry skin that cracks, if that would stop, that would be cool.

I acknowledge these things are nitpicky and minor, and I would only have necessary surgery to correct anything, such as breast reduction, as that may help my back pain or my constant rashes. If I need intestinal surgery, it likely won’t help my gastroparesis. I’m probably stuck with that.

 

We decided to buy my husband a Nintendo Switch for his birthday, only a month early so the kids could play this summer. It was supposed to be here Monday, but it showed on Friday instead. Everybody is rushing through their chores. 😂

 

I think I finally figured out what I was trying to say about jealousy so I can finally drop it. You can’t pick and choose what aspects of my life you want to be jealous of if you’re going to revile me. If you are going to call me a monster or a saint, it isn’t fair to analyze a microscopic part of my life. I’ve made mistakes, some big ones. But if you’re ignoring the big picture, you’re missing everything. And I think that’s what fascinates me about people. Why I dwell on things like this. It’s a puzzle to me.  Because I know if people took into account my whole life they would not be jealous.

(Jealous of ME? I’m nothing! This must be getting like bragging, but I’m sincerely not understanding, I’m so unimportant, I don’t know why anyone would bother, maybe they don’t, though and I have too much time on my hands. This is my conclusion. People often bring this up to me. 🤐)

 

Anyway. I’m spending my weekend relaxing. I have a birthday makeup thing to do for someone! I need to see my kids, my husband. Have a bath.

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Enjoy!

If you want me to do makeup in your favorite colour, or your favorite style, let me know! I’d be happy to try! 😘

Oh! No! More Fuckery!

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Remember how I said I clench my jaw when in pain? Ha! Ha! I woke up yesterday with a chunk missing from one of my crowns. It hurts like hell when I eat and misfire.

Hubby called my dentist right away (he’s on call) and we giphy9decided I could hang in until Tuesday after my shots. Combination of convenience of everyone, me getting some lidocaine in my jaw before lying there with my mouth open for hours, and the probability of me getting up the stairs. The dentist asked me if I needed pain relief. I laughed. He called me back in the afternoon to check up on me, he wanted to make certain I could make it to Tuesday, still. Also his best tech is on then. It makes things go quickly. See why I’m so reluctant to leave? He also mentioned it is a medium sized cavern, now that he’d checked the records. It’s work we had done about 10 years ago. Ten years? With my grinding? Woah.

I’m also being fitted for a mouth guard. I asked for two, fully intending to pay, because it’s worth the number of times I drop it and can’t reach it and then can’t nap until my husband gets home, or drop it and can’t rinse it. My dentist was all excited about this new tougher guard, so my husband will have to try to explain. I don’t think he even heard me.

 

Today is my son’s 13th birthday! I am the mother of teenagers now! Woah, I’m old. Ha ha! When I was young, I never imagined myself this old. I just didn’t! So weird…

I can’t wait for cake!

 

Have a wonderful day Zebras! 😘