Misery Inventory ๐Ÿ˜ญ

giphy1Please laugh at my misery. ๐Ÿ˜ I am having a pretty lousy day.

It actually started last night. I did my makeup for a friend’s birthday, (once again, just ask) and I was just tuckered. I fell asleep at 5? And asked husband to wake me at 8-ish. He claims he couldn’t wake me. This could be true, as once I was in hospital, and the doctor actually picked me up and shook me, I could feel her do that, I felt myself trying to wake up, but I couldn’t. So I sleep deeply. I have CPAP, don’t worry.

So I woke up this morning, just barely, and my head hurrrrrts. My neck is just aching. I can’t follow a thing. I’ve tried four documentaries and they make no sense. I have to write everything down or it’s gone. I did buy a bunch of journals over the weekend this was so much fun, though.

My stomach is killing me too, though. I have heartburn, unusual. I’m so careful, and have been not cheating. I guess the chips are out. Lightly salted, too spicy. ๐Ÿ˜ I am so very nauseated and yet am hungry. Plus my stomach hurts. Just the actual physical area of my stomach hurts. I was wearing a bralettes and it hurt, so I had to take it off. Another day where I can’t wear clothes, they are too much pressure. Physical pressure. My nightgowns are too close around my throat, though I know they aren’t. Any seam hurts. My fuzzy blanket is all I can handle. We’ve had honest discussions with the kids why mommy doesn’t wear clothes sometimes, and why that is a problem in society and we have to give her privacy.

Anyway, my stomach is acting up, but I did have a BM today, which is fantastic! ๐Ÿ˜€ I used to have to have shots that would reverse the opioids I was on so I could go. It was not a fun time.

But in addition to this, I’m having endometriosis-related cramps, and I can’t figure out why. I don’t know if my body is adjusting to the weight loss, which seems to be stable for now, around 195. Everything hurts for now, and I can never remember what I’m supposed to do.

I finally got it straight with husband. I’m supposed to take marijuana oil and then vape, but I don’t have the strength to vape. I don’t know if I’m just being lazy? Oh, hell no. I am not a lazy person. I really can’t. I don’t think it will do what I need it to do for my neck, anyway. I would really love a bath, but I can’t muster myself to get in there.

The kids are well amused. Daughter is downstairs doing whatever it is she does, and boy is playing the new Nintendo Switch we bought for Husband’s birthday next month. We thought we should get it early and have some time to play it. It arrived Friday, so the boys rushed through their chores, and husband and I had a long discussion about whether he really did ask me to order Zelda or not. I swear he didn’t. I am clear as day on this, but is it just my memory? But I would have no memory of the incident altogether, right? And he forgets to give me the phone every morning so I have to go crawl for it and hurt myself.

So, husband is calling the hospital every couple of days with no response. This is what you get with top doctors. Arrogance.

I have a ton of shopping due to arrive today. At least that should distract. And once I get that bath!

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All Whining. All the Time

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I slept most of today. My eyes hurt. They are all gunky and goobery. I have never been sick where stuff has been coming out of my eyes before, jeez. That’s gross. So I have to take my trusty Micellar water and try to clean up the damage so I can open my eyes. I still can’t totally see clearly.

My daughter fell illย this afternoon. She had the afternoon off and is off until Tuesday. I hope she’s over this quickly, as it’s not fair being sick over a long weekend. My Mom says I used to be sick on weekends. As a single mom, that was very convenient!

My son was sick earlier this week. I hope we don’t pass this around like we did at Christmas.

My husband has been generally run down from the steroids for his eyes infection. He never complains, so I’m not sure.

We have never been sick as a family the way we have been this last quarter. It’s insane. The way we pass things back and forth. We have never ever been sick like this.

I have actually been recovering faster than usual, lately. Getting over the actual flu, but it takes at least a couple of weeks to get my strength back. More like six weeks, though. It’s so frustrating to get sick.

Not to mention, it’s Thursday, so our TV is acting up again. ย It always decides to do this when my husband takes our son to autism therapy. Boo. I think it’s the cable line.

I’m also annoyed because I’m hungry, and I know nothing will sit well right now. One minute I’m all ‘food sounds goooood’ three minutes later ‘ugh, no Oooh!’

Okay, I’m going to go watch South Park, it’s just about the right amount of snark for my mood right now. Nausea is back, despite the Gravol.

Stay healthy, my zebra friends! ๐Ÿ˜˜