16 Years!

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It’s hard to believe, but we were married 16 years ago today! We still seem to like each other! 🤣 I know I like him, anyway!

He really is everything to me. He is everything fun in my life. We met on Halloween, 19 years ago. I feel both like I’ve known him forever, and I met him yesterday. Do you know what it’s like when you meet someone destined to be your family? He is my family. We do have two babies. Well, I was pregnant with one of those babies when we got married. I was told I couldn’t conceive, and we should start trying, so we could begin IVF right after the wedding…

Tonight will be a quiet night at home. He is exhausted, I am essentially bedridden, due to my chronic illness. That’s okay, we are homebodies. Restaurants are out, he has potentially fatal allergies, as do I. I have gastroparesis and the FODMAP diet makes eating out complicated.

He is exhausted from work, and I’m pretty hopped up on drugs due to my neck and head hurting so much. Although, Monday I’m going for migraine BOTOX injections. I am to talk to this doc about a neurologist. I’m starting to have fantasies about kidnapping a neurologist, forcing them to treat me, so something needs to happen soon.

Have a great evening!

Im Thinking of Hiring a Male Escort…

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…to come over and watch tv with me. You see, my family is impossible to watch television with. The husband can only watch things that require sporadic attention, like sports, or a comedian. I cajoled him into watching Stranger Things with me last weekend, and in the first freaking episode he had figured out major plot points! I didn’t let him know this, of course. He was great, I know this required extra effort on his part. We then watched Atypical, which is about an 18-year old with autism. That was painful. He is dealing with his own autism and it hit a bit close to home, I think. Anyway, it was wonderful of him to watch with me, but I can’t ask him to do this regularly. He has a stressful job, and to come home and stress over tv is too much.

My daughter watched some tv with me the other day. She likes her shows, though. Either horror movies or teen shows.

I’ve been trying to pull away from documentary and watch more comedy. I think it’s good.

Finally managed to reach my grandmother yesterday. She reminded me she’s turning 96 next week. She asked how old I was, and when I said 47 in November, she replied “Oh, you’re old, too!” 🤣 My husband is 49 next week. Yikes! We is ancient.

Chatting with grandma was lovely but tough. She has a benign tumour on her pancreas, and a polyp in her throat. She needs to have all her food blended. We compared pathetic diets, followed by a round of ‘I feel bad for you!’ ‘No, I feel bad for you!’ It’s horrible to be pitied by your grandmother! I assured her I have a wonderful full life, even if it’s not very exciting. I can’t help but shake the feeling she’s hanging on to make sure we grandkids are all settled.

My life is really lovely. I do have a nice spot carved out here. It’s a quiet life, I’m not making huge splashes at anything. But is that what I want? I have enough people in this world with grudges against me, for very silly things, for the most part. I will just sit here quietly and enjoy my life and quietly do what I can to avoid pain. Cultivate what friendships I can, and just be in the moment.

It sounds right.

💜

Srsly.

giphy4This would be funny if it wasn’t so pathetic. I woke up this morning, after a fairly decent sleep. Husband went out on Saturday, his friend was in town so I got twelve hours sleep in. Then last night I fell asleep around 10:00, woke up a few times, but 6:00 came round, as it does, and I woke up cheery!

Until I had to call my husband to grab the barf bucket.

So this is what’s going on today. I am weak and exhausted, which I was blaming on the cold, but I guess is a flu? And food is completely unappealing. I’ve taken some Gravol, and I think it’s time for pill 2.

I was looking forward to feeling better today, maybe playing with some makeup, but that isn’t going to happen, I don’t think. Looks like a quiet day napping. Sigh. Again.

I bought some of the cutest clothes at Old Navy! I had to revamp my wardrobe at my new size. They had a bunch of cute items with Zebras on them! I can’t wait until they get here and I’m well enough to show you! ☺

Have a restful day, Zebra friends! 😘 I’m taking a sign from the universe to rest.