Things Aren’t Happy

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This gif reminds me there is no one missing from our family. Things aren’t quite so dire. There are always people who are more in need than we are. We should remember them, at this time, and at all times. Drop someone a note. It really will make their day.

However, on to my tale of woe! 🤣 The past few days I have been sleeping. Waking occaionally to vomit. Yesterday, I was well enough to watch tv with my daughter, and had to use the washroom. Oy! Pardon the grossness, but I pooped a Christmas tree! I was vomiting, thank goodness my husband was working from home, I had my daughter rescue him from a conference call – I honestly thought it was hospital time. Now, I used to have problems with constipation.  So bad that I would have to take an injection to reverse the opiods so I could go. I was going everyday this week! I didn’t eat, though, much. So strange. I feel horrible still. I am hoping things improve. It sounds like the flu, right? Nah, just more intense version of my everyday. I’m cold, hot and I can’t stop shaking.

As for Christmas gifts, we celebrate Christmas, I have been ordering things, but I don’t remember what I bought for who or what. I haven’t maxed out my card, so we seem to be okay, but the boxes that are arriving? There’s a lot! What have I done? What do I need to wrap? Oh God help me. Next week will be brutal.

I have managed to escape the in-laws Christmas dinner. My husband has finally gotten across I’m too ill. My MIL understands, apparently, because we share symptoms. No, it doesnt bother me she’s 85. 🙄 However, she used to scream at my husband for helping me in any way. It’s best if I sit it out. It’s an hour each way. I can’t do it. My mother asked me if I was coming for Christmas. Even after I explained. They live an hour and 20 away. I wish people got this, ya know. LISTEN!

I wish I could stop obsessing about where my friends have disappeared to. I realize it’s the holidays, and I don’t expect to hear from people now, but… yeah. It’s pretty lonely here. I wish I was much more of an introvert. I need to work on this. I bought some therapy journals, and I hope they provide some distraction.

I’m working on getting some doctors working on these issues. Well, my husband is. It is not going well. I was rejected by one doctor because I have not been diagnosed with Chrohn’s disease. So new GI, go through the waiting list. I’m burping almost constantly, even water is painful to drink, and I have a huge pain the size of my fist on the right side that hurts when food moves around that bend. I’ve had it checked out gynecologically six ways, so we are confident it’s a GI thing.

This weekend, I think we try to put up the tree. I hope the minions can get it done. My kids are stuggling pretty hard with school. But they deserve privacy.

My husband actually showed them my Christmas tree poop yesterday! Part biology lesson, part ‘yes Mommy really is sick, this is evidence’ not that they doubted, but he’s so matter of fact, he just carries on! 😆 They are 15 and 13, so it wasn’t torture and they could have told him to take a flying leap. I wondered about it, but seriously, what if they were home alone with me one day and I had a fecal accident. It hasn’t happened yet, but it might. They will be a lot more prepared, and just thankful it is a normal colour!

That’s probably enough rambling from me today. Make sure you reach out to someone you love today. December can be cold and lonely.

 

Friends!

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Yay! I have friends! I’m even wearing people clothes!

This past week has been a nightmare. That flu bug wiped me right out, and I am still feeling weak. Yet I am recovering faster than I have from other viruses, so I will take this! My daughter is still battling, she had to stay home from school, her headache was too intense.

My son is out for his first overnight trip! He’s out with the school. He has been bouncing off the walls all weekend. This will be so great for instilling his confidence. He’s a great kid. I’m just having trouble seeing my babies grow up. I had some insomnia over the weekend. I was the same way when his sister went.

If there is any confusion between the My/Our pronouns with the kids, there are just two kids, sometimes I remember to share credit, and sometimes I don’t. 😁

My good friend called me this morning, and we had a great chat, until I had to go, I suddenly started to feel awful again. But I had a nap, and if my surrogate little sister wasn’t coming to visit, I would probably still be napping!

My surrogate little sister is a good friend of my actual sister, and used to live with my family when she was a teen. I’m 14 years older than my sister, so I was long gone, but she’s an important part of the family. I haven’t seen her in at least ten years. She’s going to be surprised when she gets let in by my 5’9″ daughter who was knee-high last visit. 😅

I had to cancel my doctor’s appointment tomorrow at 1:00. I’m so annoyed. My husband can’t take me there, because he has to ‘work’ what kind of stupid excuse…( totally kidding ) No, he has to work, and the boss is out or something, and I can’t get there on my own because I’m so sore and weak right now. I have this awful pain in my abdomen that hurts when I sit up straight for more than a couple of minutes. Sometimes it twinges right away. I can’t seem to determine if it’s gynecological or gastrointestinal. We chased the gynecological theory for years, but my gastroenterologist was so dismissive and, frankly, rude, I’m not excited to try again. I mean, on FODMAP my inflammation issue is down, but the two spots of searing pain in my gut and my right lower abdomen are still present. The nausea has not gone away.

My friend has come and gone. We had such fun, and such a good chat. She lives an hour away, and is so kind to come visit me! She’s seeing her actual sister today, but had an extra couple of hours. I think we killed that and then some! Such good fun! I showed her part of my makeup collection. Silly bunny came to visit all made up! Who does that? I’ve actually resorted to storing my makeup in tubs. It’s just easier.

I love visiting, but I don’t love how tired it makes me, or how exhausted I get so quickly. I’m too young for this! I demand a recount!

We’ve made plans for next month. Visiting Bite Lip Lab, North America’s biggest Sephora is in Toronto, and lots more chatting. I have to rest up! Two venues? That is a tall order. I am excited to try!

It’s really nice being dressed. I feel so accomplished.

I haven’t been vaping the past few days, just using the marijuana oil at night. I’ve been worried about the vaping affecting my eye swelling flu thing, and been too nauseated to try, anyway. I’m hoping the pain in my back is ramping up only because of this, and not for some other fun reason. It is the most likely, however, hoof beats and all…

Hope my zebra pals had a peaceful day! 😘