Sickie!

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Although I think I’m done with the cat puking phase… ๐Ÿ˜‚. It’s terrible when you have two kids in school, and a husband who is in different offices. He has to work in different spaces sometimes. Not to mention the amount of doctors offices and hospitals we hang out in. I feel like im not catching things as often as I was, and I’m getting over them more quickly, so there’s that.

So I’ve been curled up in warm blankets, shivering. My husband was even with me on Monday, but I wasn’t too bad then. Tuesday I slept, and Wednesday, I alternately slept and expelled kittens.

I was going to try and do some things today, but i asked my husband for some warm clothes, and he laughed at me and handed me the cold medicine. The nighttime stuff. I suppose he’s right. I’m so achy and cold I will probably need today just to warm up.

It’s not THAT bad a flu, though. Might as well coddle myself, since I have the opportunity! Warm blankets… my shoulders are really sore, though. Incredibly sore. They go along with the rest of the body aches, but I’ve never had anything target my shoulders before. Strange.

Oh, and our neighbors are having work done on their house this week and it echoes right into our bedroom. Good thing I can sleep through almost anything. Daughter brought me noise cancelling headphones and i slept through my alarm. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Ok. Time for rest. ย We’re all getting flu shots when healthy. I insist. I’m not doing this all winter. I’ll be down to my birthweight.

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Birthday Weekend Festivities!

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I had a quiet weekend. My husband wasn’t feeling well, and is currently lying beside me trying to rest in the middle of the day. ย Something he is lousy at. The darling got up after I fell asleep on Thursday and made me a FODMAP friendly cake. It was delicious. I think there is some left. Very moist.

I also received a lovely crystal bunny. It’s called Rabbit with Roses. My husband has been buying me Swarovski necklaces for years. I also collect rabbits. My son also points out there are three roses and three people in the family. โค

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I spent most of the weekend puttering around cleaning out drawers and sorting my makeup so it’s accessible and neat. Not everyone’s idea of a good time, but one of my favourite things to do. I do think I overdid it a bit, as I woke up this morning a bit sore, but as my husband was taking his temperature, so did I. I’m running a slight fever, so I must have caught something going around here. We need to make time for our flu shots this year. Unfortunately my husband’s year end is October 31, so he’s very stressed.

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As I was cleaning out my dresser, I found this little guy! A Zebra bunny! I collect bunnies, and I collect zebra things, because of EDS. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I received so many birthday wishes this weekend. It was nice. A bit overwhelming! I’m not used to so many people! I got in touch with most people, I think I got everyone. There are a few people I still want to talk to, though.

I called my Grandma yesterday and had a nice long chat. So great. I miss her.

Christmas is already becoming an issue. I’m glad my husband has my back. My in-laws have a separate celebration so the families don’ t have to choose which family to see. My in-laws live an hour away, and last year they hosted and everyone went to a restaurant. I didn’t attend as I was ill. This year, my mother in law was lamenting my absence and was trying to make plans to ensure I could be there. My husband explained there was only a slim chance I could attend if it was in my own house, never mind making plans for me. And she is in her eighties and having trouble with stairs, so she’ s sacrificing a lot. With my head, even though it’s better than it was, I just don’t think the stress of the holidays is going to help it. Plus weather exacerbates the problem.

Next door has construction going on, which is one thing with the intermittent hammering, but then they’re blasting a television set and then drums? Am I in a psychological experiment? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Duh, I think they are setting up sound equipment.

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Hang Head, Feel Shame.

I have been so neglectful of keeping you updated, I really should be ashamed of myself. However, I have experienced a very disruptive two weeks, and I am merely catching up now.

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Firstly, today is my 47th birthday. (Cheers, applause) I take birthdays pretty darn seriously. I always have. Partly, because it gives me an excuse for self-care, which is not something I allow myself on a regular basis, although I am getting much better. I tend to celebrate myself for a week or a month. Depending. I have never celebrated my birthday with a party as an adult. I only had a couple of parties as a kid, then we had the family parties where we celebrated everyone’s birthday that month. In my 20s, we were too poor and I was always working, then babies and now I’m eating so funny, and I can never get anyone together. The banking industry has its year-end on October 31, so most of my friends were really busy these past two weeks to a month. Including my husband. I hope he starts coming to bed before I’m on my last leg now!

Enough of that whining, Sephora started their Rouge Sale this morning, so I saved up for ages! Bought tons of goodies! Yay! Toys!

It seems my Botox kicked in on Monday sometime. So I’m feeling much better. I need to be very careful and ensure I lie down, avoid stress, eat properly, relax, rest, but as long as I take care I have a lot of improvement. I’m excited for Christmas!

It seems our son may not have autism. He was evaluated with the school psychologist, and while he presents as autistic, he is very anxious and has some serious learning disabilities we are trying to negotiate. They involve information processing and executive function. Once these are rectified, he may do just fine, and the autistic appearance will hopefully fall away. If it doesn’t, then he is autistic and we have more to work on.

Still having trouble with daughter attending school regularly. Her anxiety is just overwhelming.

So that’s what has been occupying my day to day. Both kids have needed more time from me, so I’ve been there for them. I’m tired today. Mellow. This afternoon cries for a nap.

I did have some fun with Halloween costumes.

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Beware the Rainbow Kitty!

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Who’s the cutest zebra you’ve ever seen? ๐Ÿ˜›

Hope you had a great Halloween!!!

Here’s hoping things get back to ‘normal’ lol!

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Standing Ovation

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I am an advice column junkie. I just adore them. Maybe I like to know there are people who have more problems than I do. Or that maybe having friends isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, anyway. Whenever I had friends, they all had crazy rules that they never told me about. I had to guess. Then people would get angry when I didn’t ‘know’. Like this one friend who was really sensitive about talking about her family. My dad had a mild stroke a few years ago, and, coincidentally, hers had one a day later. She didn’t ask about my dad, so I took this as a signal she didn’t want to discuss it. Well, you guessed it. She flew into a rage a few weeks later about how I never ask about her family. Well, she never asks about mine, either, I thought we were setting a tone? Ugh.

Then, of course, having to be informed two childhood friends aren’t speaking to me. It occurred to me the other day: Are there more? ๐Ÿคฃ how do you decide to no longer speak to a person you never interact with. Boggles me. I really want an explanation of the evolution of this. Because it’s so…

Anyway, reading Dear Prudence, which I pay for the Plus membership at Slate, because I love it. I saw this article and I had to share.

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And you can also see I’ve been shopping for slipper socks, they are inexplicably called reading socks now. If you are in Canada, indigo has some for $5. Last year’s sherpas! Fuzzy! We are also supposed to trade in our 2014 minivan. Wtf ? Our prior car was an 88 Caprice Classic. This trade in every 3 year garbage? No way. Plus, hubby is 6’5″ when he gets comfy, he stays put. He also only drives it on weekends to Wal-Mart and the grocery store.

He’s snoring away with dental floss in his mouth! Aww!

Goodnight all! ๐Ÿ’œ

 

Im Thinking of Hiring a Male Escort…

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…to come over and watch tv with me. You see, my family is impossible to watch television with. The husband can only watch things that require sporadic attention, like sports, or a comedian. I cajoled him into watching Stranger Things with me last weekend, and in the first freaking episode he had figured out major plot points! I didn’t let him know this, of course. He was great, I know this required extra effort on his part. We then watched Atypical, which is about an 18-year old with autism. That was painful. He is dealing with his own autism and it hit a bit close to home, I think. Anyway, it was wonderful of him to watch with me, but I can’t ask him to do this regularly. He has a stressful job, and to come home and stress over tv is too much.

My daughter watched some tv with me the other day. She likes her shows, though. Either horror movies or teen shows.

I’ve been trying to pull away from documentary and watch more comedy. I think it’s good.

Finally managed to reach my grandmother yesterday. She reminded me she’s turning 96 next week. She asked how old I was, and when I said 47 in November, she replied “Oh, you’re old, too!” ๐Ÿคฃ My husband is 49 next week. Yikes! We is ancient.

Chatting with grandma was lovely but tough. She has a benign tumour on her pancreas, and a polyp in her throat. She needs to have all her food blended. We compared pathetic diets, followed by a round of ‘I feel bad for you!’ ‘No, I feel bad for you!’ It’s horrible to be pitied by your grandmother! I assured her I have a wonderful full life, even if it’s not very exciting. I can’t help but shake the feeling she’s hanging on to make sure we grandkids are all settled.

My life is really lovely. I do have a nice spot carved out here. It’s a quiet life, I’m not making huge splashes at anything. But is that what I want? I have enough people in this world with grudges against me, for very silly things, for the most part. I will just sit here quietly and enjoy my life and quietly do what I can to avoid pain. Cultivate what friendships I can, and just be in the moment.

It sounds right.

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Dizziness

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I am so freaking dizzy! I can’t close my eyes anymore, I just can’t. I should be sleeping.

I fell in the bath today. I was crouching to get in, and I saw blackness, then splash! And then my back and shoulder on the left side started hurting. Which is annoying, because my back was doing pretty all right, considering I should have my shots tomorrow, Tuesday, if this is Monday, already. It’s 2:30 am.

I actually feel as if I am getting a period. This is weird. I have a Mirena, have had no problems, just treated for a yeast infection, have incredibly sore boobs, cramps, sore back, and twinges. Definitely not pregnant. I guess I have to trek to the doc. I wonder if weight loss has something to do with it. I’ve never used Mirena at this weight. Does it need time to adjust?

This dizziness is something else. I even THINK about looking up? Makes me sick. I hate people who post photos from planes or videos of skydiving? I start shaking. I’m tearing up just thinking about it. ย Or from space? I want to vomit. I don’t know how I’m going to get through tomorrow (no, wait. We decided it was today, right?) today. Someone is going to want me to look up at something…

I just tried to roll on my back facing up and I couldn’t. It makes the room spin. It’s so weird.

I was thinking again the other day… so dangerous, ๐Ÿ˜„ a couple of appointments ago I was trying to get a concept across to my mmj doctor. I was asking her about a stronger dose or another strain, although my distributor doesn’t do that, that would help me… and I couldn’t quite put my finger on the concept.

Relax.

Relax my muscles an perhaps let some of the tension in my body go. You cannot even fathom how rigid I hold my body. Even when I’m relaxing. I can’t drink, we can’t get massages, every time I do relax I get a fucking migraine, I can’t eat anything good, hot bath? How long does that last? I’m cooking to death in this room already, no heat for me. I hate cold, I snuggle up and watch comedians on Netflix. I’m still tense as fuck.

I can’t close my eyes, it makes me dizzy.

I’ve been trying for an hour to sleep.

Anyway, now I target each part of my body starting from the top or bottom, and relax each bit. It’s an exercise. Deep breathing, all that jazz.

My little corner of the universe is becoming quite becoming. I’m finding a lot of joy here. My makeup stash to my skincare stash, (PS, if you spend more than $100 on Korean skincare and masks, it is too much, and you will spend the next six years giving it to everyone who walks by. ) it’s all becoming accessible and organized and joyful. My clothes are slowly getting organized… that’s my daughter’s project, though, and she is taking forever!

Anyway, I need to try for 3 hours, and my elbow hurts! ๐Ÿ˜ข

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Netflix and Nausea

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My Zebra Strong tee arrived! Booster.com helps charities with fundraising, so they are a cool place to check out.

The past couple of days have been interesting. Yesterday morning I accomplished quite a bit. I cleaned a bit of my bed area and my outstanding computer files. I’m transitioning from a Yahoo address to a gmail, so I did some of that.

I napped all afternoon.

I’ve been watching a lot of Netflix. Mostly Documentaries, interspersed with Embarrassing Bodies, which mostly involves sexually harassing the male doctor, but I’m alone in my room, he can’t hear. โ˜บ

My head hurts. I couldn’t keep down breakfast. I’m almost used to this pain now.

My memory gets really lousy as the day goes on. It’s awful. I did go on a journal spending spree and got some nice ones!

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There are some dotted pens. They are cute! I bought a proper Address Book. I won’t have to fire up the computer every time I need an address! There were three plain journals, and two holographic/iridescent journals. I’m in love with holographic or iridescent products. โค

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Pretty! And, of course, you can see the reflection of the ring light.

It’s been thunderstorms like crazy here! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

I’m incredibly bored, so I’ve made Amazon my bitch, and it’s giving my husband heart palpitations. I’m terrible, I can never do just one thing at a time. The tv is on, but I have to be futzing on my tablet or organizing a drawer or writing a list… I need to Zen more. I should slow it down.

Although I felt awful today, I’m feeling better than I was this morning. My back doesn’t hurt as much, my head is okay. I might try a quick look.

It’s amazing how your pain can change. I know I’m delicate today, though. My abdomen is threatening cramps if I’m not careful. Is that the Endometriosis acting up?

Today will be quiet, with some masking, skincare, Netflix, naps, photos, and maybe a makeup look if I can.

Moving slowly, though. No need to rush!

Hope you have a great weekend!

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