Im Thinking of Hiring a Male Escort…

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…to come over and watch tv with me. You see, my family is impossible to watch television with. The husband can only watch things that require sporadic attention, like sports, or a comedian. I cajoled him into watching Stranger Things with me last weekend, and in the first freaking episode he had figured out major plot points! I didn’t let him know this, of course. He was great, I know this required extra effort on his part. We then watched Atypical, which is about an 18-year old with autism. That was painful. He is dealing with his own autism and it hit a bit close to home, I think. Anyway, it was wonderful of him to watch with me, but I can’t ask him to do this regularly. He has a stressful job, and to come home and stress over tv is too much.

My daughter watched some tv with me the other day. She likes her shows, though. Either horror movies or teen shows.

I’ve been trying to pull away from documentary and watch more comedy. I think it’s good.

Finally managed to reach my grandmother yesterday. She reminded me she’s turning 96 next week. She asked how old I was, and when I said 47 in November, she replied “Oh, you’re old, too!” 🤣 My husband is 49 next week. Yikes! We is ancient.

Chatting with grandma was lovely but tough. She has a benign tumour on her pancreas, and a polyp in her throat. She needs to have all her food blended. We compared pathetic diets, followed by a round of ‘I feel bad for you!’ ‘No, I feel bad for you!’ It’s horrible to be pitied by your grandmother! I assured her I have a wonderful full life, even if it’s not very exciting. I can’t help but shake the feeling she’s hanging on to make sure we grandkids are all settled.

My life is really lovely. I do have a nice spot carved out here. It’s a quiet life, I’m not making huge splashes at anything. But is that what I want? I have enough people in this world with grudges against me, for very silly things, for the most part. I will just sit here quietly and enjoy my life and quietly do what I can to avoid pain. Cultivate what friendships I can, and just be in the moment.

It sounds right.

💜

Exhaustion Takes Over

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I have been too tired for words lately. I feel like the exhaustion from my Botox treatments have passed, but I am the kind of tired from not sitting around doing nothing long enough or not sleeping well enough. My CPAP mask has been acting up, I just realized the other night I was spending an awful lot of time fiddling with it while I was supposed to be sleeping. My husband ordered a new one and it arrived today.

This month has been lousy with new makeup releases. I’ve been playing with makeup for so many days! My hands are sore, and I took  some photos today and noticed my eye was drooping in the photo, I was so tired. Yesterday, most of my photos were lousy. It’s hard to look good in a photo when you’re tired and sore. It’s possible, but, it doesn’t happen often.

I think the best thing is for me to put myself on vacation until Monday, April 24. If I feel inspired, I may post, but I’m hoping to sleep, rest my hands and wash my makeup brushes and rejuvenate. I have posts brewing in my head, but they will wait.

I’m getting jumpy. I should go.

Have a good weekend, my Zebra friends! 😘

Stumbling Around in the Light

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Good God I’m tired. I woke up this morning feeling well. I had energy. I made plans! I finished my vaping and decided to call my Mom as I hadn’t called her in ages. Halfway through the call, I lost all my energy. It just disappeared. I was so disappointed.  I had planned to do some fun makeup things, prep for Instagram and my Beauty Blog. It was not meant to be. I ended up trying to cry, but I was too tired to produce tears.

I had another three hour nap this afternoon. I put on some golf to listen to, and was out.

So I’m currently sitting amongst makeup detritus, waiting for my husband to come to bed so we can snuggle and I can go to sleep again.

I picked up a phone message yesterday and it seems my gastroenterologist from hell retired at the end of March. Everyone knew this but me, apparently, I guess I was trying too hard to stay upright I didn’t see the signs posted in the office, and husband didn’t mention it. I’m annoyed and relieved. It explains why he gave no fucks. Likely why he wasn’t interested in a long term patient. Let’s start over, shall we? Sounds like fun.

I have so much to do, so much to say, stuff to do, and zero energy. Ugh.

Is there such a thing as like medicinal energy drinks? Medicinal meth? In my day it was cocaine I guess. I was thinking, what speeds you up? Speed?  Lol. I’m soo into drug culture, can you tell? I had a friend who used to show up with pot in high school. Perfect with the pain of my menstrual cramps, we now know I have endometriosis, but that’s all the unprescribed drugs I took. I can feel crappy all on my own.

One Facebook friend? had a status today that read 90% of illness is emotionally related. 😂😂😂

I read one of those anecdote collection of medical stories, and it told of this one student who was sitting behind another student who pulled out a bottle of Tylenol and counted out 8 pills and went to swallow them before he stopped her and asked what she was doing. She said her pain was at an 8, so she was taking 8 tablets. That’s why doctors ask you to rate your pain out of 10, right? 😮 Scary.

Okay. I’m worn out. My hands are feeling good from all the rest, they’re just cold! 🙂

Have a lovely evening, my Zebras! 😘

 

So Mellow…

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Feeling very relaxed today. I’m tired. Very tired. I don’t want to go to sleep, though, because I don’t want to be up all night.

I am so tired, I can’t get my eyes to focus. It’s not good. Our television cable box is still broken, so there’s nothing. We can watch recorded shows, but that means resetting every half hour, too. I don’t want to pay that much attention. I just want the ambient noise!

I am so hungry, today. I think I will feel better with some lunch. I really want to play with some silver and gold pigments I have. I just have this awful headache pounding at the back of my head and temple on the left side. Not a fan. It’s not bad, but it’s enough to be quietly reminding you, you should be smart.

I was thinking earlier about all the things I would do if I was well

  • Visit my Grandmother in Winnipeg
  • Take my kids to Disney World
  • Go to the movies
  • Drink a milkshake
  • Eat wings…oh, I could have them hot!! 😆
  • Go to a Sephora STORE and roll in the aisles!
  • Be intimate with my husband 😶
  • Walk everywhere
  • Go to the dentist
  • Have a shower
  • Have a girls’ night
  • Have a girls’ day out with lipstick making at Bite Beauty and custom makeovers at Sephora

Those are the only things on my wish list for right now. I have tentative plans with some friends to get custom lipsticks made at Bite Beauty with two sets of friends. After one set, we are supposed to go get custom makeovers at Sephora, but that does sound ambitious. We shall see.

I don’t think I’m going to get to play with makeup this afternoon. Not without a nap first at the very least. Too bad, I had some great ideas.  💤

Have a beautiful day zebras! 😘