Muddling Through

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All in all, I’m not feeling too awful. I hadn’t had a great time sleeping, but once I’d figured out my feet haven’t been warm since… I can’t remember, it was time for some socks. I usually can’t sleep with socks on, but my feet liked this, and I slept like the proverbial log. I thought I should look online to see if I could find some slippers. Not an easy thing in August. I may stick with the socks with the trippy bottoms for now.

I was miserable last night. I had a couple of days where I had slept for 20 hours or so, and my meds were all screwed up. My knee kept popping out, my face and head hurt, my back hurt, I had cramps, I couldn’t remember anything, and I was lonely.  I was whining to my husband that I couldn’t get comfortable, and I was freezing. I wanted more pillows, and he got this happy look on his face. Apparently, he had purchased all these pillows and didn’t know what to do with them. So he immediately piled four pillows on me and produced three from under the bed. Such comfort!

My sheets are so gross and smelly. I’ve been so sick, husband hasn’t been able to get me out long enough to change them. This weekend. I am so excited! The kids’ bedding is changed every week, but I’m always asking him to leave it just one more week, we will be fine! Ugh.

I am so tired these days. The heat, the pain, not moving, the stress. It adds up. I’m usually better after my shots, but I haven’t heard from the clinic yet. I’m not eating as much, either. I get weighed on the weekend, usually, too.

Today it’s mostly my head, my back, and my pubic bone giving me trouble. My knees are acting up when I get up to use the washroom. I try to straighten them and they pop and crack, quite painfully, as you see the patella slide around, or it knocks sideways before sliding into place. God, it hurts.  I’m trying to rehydrate. Last night I had the worst case of dry mouth. It’s probably from all that time asleep. I should have taken in some water. Thunder storms and rain today. The big stick that pokes my wounds.

My boy is a grouchy today. His sister is being sweet to me. I was thinking just yesterday how I will missthem when school starts. Check that. Not the fighting. Sigh.

As long as my feet are warm, I’m sleepy. So it’s naptime. I’m nodding off.

Happily Dragging my Behind

I have been so tired the past couple of days, but no rest for the giphywicked! I ended up sleeping most of Thursday afternoon. By the time I settled in, it was close to 1:00 and my husband woke me when he and the boy returned from physical therapy at 7:00. It felt so good! I had no trouble sleeping except I was excited for makeup the next day.

I’m finding this problem with sleeping pills. Either they are not strong enough, where they don’t help me sleep, then the next one up is good, but I need a nap the next day, and I can fall asleep on a dime. There is nothing in between.

My daughter wanted to watch some horror movies, but not really scary ones, just scary enough they were interesting, and not too scary she would have nightmares. So we watched one called #Horror, also known as Hashtag Horror or Slashtag about a group of 12 year old girls who bully each other and then start dying. It’s very strange. Stars Natasha Lyonne and Chloe Sevigny.

We then watched The Girls in the Photographs. This was not bad. Not great. Another weird one. Creepy. Kal Penn is a photographer, character is based on Terry Richardson. Yes I read IMDB! 😄

By that time, I’d had enough peopling, so I decided to do my wp-1489850277865.jpgnails for the first time in years! I found it surprisingly easy. Even though my hands were so very stiff. I had to move them into position for the photo! 😃 I love having painted nails. They give me a little thrill every time I look at them. It makes me smile. I have found a couple of brands that do not smell to odoriferous, so I stick to those, mostly. The more you keep them out of hot water, the better the polish stays, redo your top coat every second day or so, and basecoat are my tips to make your polish last. And don’t forget to lightly go over the end of the nail with your topcoat! It’s called ‘capping the end’ and it helps prevent wear.

I called my marijuana provider to find out when my paperwork was going to be finished so I can reorder. I’m supposed to order today, but my doctor appointment was just on Tuesday, paperwork isn’t done blah blah blah, still have shipping, blah, anyway, she said I’d get an email when it was finished.

Me: When will that be?

Rep: Soon.

Me: Are we talking hours or days?

Rep: By Monday.

Me: I need to order tomorrow.

Rep: Yeah, it’s all here, I’ll have it done by Monday.

Me: I’m going to run out!

Rep: Monday.

Lovely. I’ve never, ever been treated like that by CanniMed before. It makes me nervous when my new doctor says “vape when you need to” and my usually good distributor is shrugging. When my husband called to get receipts earlier this week they were great! I feel betrayed. I realize it isn’t that bad, but sometimes it’s not what you say, it’s how you say it. I’m dependant on these drugs to be a human being with a life. There is also the shipping delay, and having to get these items to my house. They don’t teleport.

Today I got up early, at 8:00. I’m deep conditioning my hair, I’ve vaped, had breakfast, getting ready for my bath. My daughter wants to watch another movie this afternoon, but with the house quiet, she also wants time to herself. I’m not sure what will win out.

I’m so dehydrated my lips are cracking, so I need to focus on this. In fact, I feel really unfocused. I feel like I’m behind on reading blogs, answering email, I haven’t called my mom in ages. I generally feel like I’m running to catch up. I think having the monsters home at spring break has left me a bit peopled out for a bit. I’m used to more alone time.

I’m afraid now, every time someone contacts me on Facebook messenger, they are going to try to sell me something. 😔

Have a glorious day, Zebras!