Drained.

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I’m going to take a couple of weeks off. I have nothing left. I’m completely empty of anything valuable.  I’m not coping well, and I need to reevaluate some shit.

I need to rest. I need to get over this flu. I need to get warm. I need to reinvigorate myself. I feel like I’m sitting around whining. This is not who I usually am, nor who am I happy being. I need to take some time to reflect.

Things have been really complicated here for the past couple of weeks, and I need all my resources to refocus our family. I act as main cheerleader, and my distraction lately has resulted in a lot of problems with school.

I’m not happy now. I need to find out what might actually make me happy. It may be as simple as shaking the funk that accompanies flu. It may involve serious house reorganizing.

Will keep you posted.

Before December 1 if I am able.

Feel free to email if you wish.

Luxury and Resting Up

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I discovered these bath salts at my favourite online shop. I’m not certain they do much actually, in terms of healing, but are they that different from Epsom salts? They are certainly lovely to lay in a bath with.

I’ve been both busy and boring. My lipstick from a big launch came in, so I played with that, but other than that, I’m not certain I have many spoons left. My body is giving signals it’s unhappy.

  • I’m exhausted most of the time, which is not unusual, but is getting worse.
  • I’m getting sores on my tongue
  • I’m craving chocolate all the time. I suspect my body is looking for quick energy.
  • My minor body aches are becoming bigger. Often I will have simple body aches that aren’t even noticeable, but lately my body is sore almost as if I have the flu or worked out too hard.
  • I’m very jumpy. Every time something falls or touches me, I jump a mile.
  • Open sores. I’m developing sores, like a line along my bust that feels like a bedsore and isn’t healing well.

So I expect to be resting this week.

I got my hair done yesterday. I will post a pic tomorrow when I’m up to it. It’s straight for now because we do a keratin treatment to help with tangles. It lasts longer if you leave it straight and don’t wet it for a bit.

I also bought a bunch of braces. Will show!

 

 

Unnngh

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I’m so stressed. Yet it’s mostly self inflicted. I mean, I think the pressure is self inflicted.  Ì ended up sleeping a lot again today. I couldn’t stay awake, and my back and abdomen were just screaming in pain. I must have overdid it yesterday. It’s so irritating that I put on makeup for 20 minutes and it caused me to have to sleep for the day. I’m at a loss as to how to cope because there is just no help available until my doctor appointments unless I go to the hospital. Honestly, what can they do for me? I mean, besides berate me for wasting taxpayers money. Never mind the people going in for sore throats because their doctors office is closed.

My husband is working hours and hours, I haven’t seen him in days. I miss him. I also have to have an uncomfortable conversation with a person because they are doing things that are crossing boundaries and I’m not happy. I’m too exhausted to deal with this. I just want everybody to leave me alone, except the people I don’t want to leave me alone. 😁 yeah, it’s just as bad in here.

I don’t want to sleep my life away.

Hope you’re having a great evening, Zebras! 😘

 

Busy Couple of Days…

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The past couple of days have seemed like a whirlwind, even though, I suppose, Thursday I spent resting up for Friday! ‘I’m leardening’ as Ralph Wiggum would say.

Thursday, I really shut down for the most part. I had a friend call me that I hadn’t spoken with in a while, so we caught up a bit. My neck was hurting so much, I could barely concentrate. I slept the rest of the afternoon, and into the evening.

Friday we prepared the family to drive an hour to an hour and a half north to visit 20170415_121301my hairdresser, and then my parents. So after four and a half hours in the chair, I emerged… redder! I’m naturally curly, but I should keep the blowout for a few days, as it helps maintain the keratin.  You can see how tired I am in the photo. But, back in bed, yay!

After, we went to visit my parents. My daughter and I were so tired, my husband had to say, come on, but it didn’t take much. I miss seeing them. We didn’t get to stay long, but my son just blossomed in their presence. I have such great kids. My Mom made me this gorgeous Afghan, she actually made me two, one in pink, one in purple, and let me choose. It was tough! I wanted both! 😃 My Dad was pretty responsive. He has severe depression, he can’t always be present when we are there. It was good.

I have some stuff I want to do while I still am with cutlery. Soon!

Be well,

Have a great afternoon, my Zebra hombres! 😘

 

 

Wednesday!

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Having a restful day relaxing and recovering from yesterday and my doctor appointment adventure. I’m awfully tired today. Very sore, but feeling good otherwise. My hands are unruly, though. It’s like trying to type with mannequin hands. They are so stiff, and kind of sore.

My son had to watch the documentary movie Supersize Me for school, so we watched it together. He has so much homework to do while on break, but I don’t think he’s touched much of it. I know he was supposed to have a bath today, and has ignored all requests to get in and do that. Dad will have to yell, I suppose.

My husband called about that ridiculous taxi driver who was so obnoxious yesterday, and it turns out he is suspended. The company apparently has been having problems with him, but they can’t really prevent him from getting into one of their cars and driving, he’s just not sanctioned. Nice to know, staying home forever now. 😂

I put up a photo of my new highlighter set and got a comment on my Instagram from said highlighter creator, and my favourite makeup guru Pat McGrath, so I am in seventh heaven today! I took some time to play and I had a good relaxing fun experience.

My television cable box  connection has been broken since yesterday. This isn’t enormous, but I get a ringing in my ears and I like some television noise to drown it out. Music is jarring to me, for some reason and that really upsets me. I miss it. I can only listen to things in a certain tone and if it gets too high-pitched, I just cringe. Also, at a certain point I flake. With no TV, I keep on going… not good.

My friend since high school sent me the most touching note. I’m just … I need a few days sometimes between when something happens and thanking someone. I need time to let my emotions settle. It was so beautiful. I’m going to keep that note forever. ❤

Today was a comfortable day, despite the pain. I don’t know if that even makes sense.

Have a lovely day, Zebra friends! 😙