Nesting

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I’m deep into Nesting mode today. My ex husband used to call me hamster girl, because I love organizing and reorganizing all the things. Whenever I’m “sitting still” you can usually soon hear the rustle of paper. Today I went through all of my makeup and reorganized it. It was already sort of organized, but I redid it. Tomorrow I will tackle skincare. Unfortunately, I tried a look after I did the organisation and when I took the photos, my eyes are wonky. My eye pulls in when I get tired, and it doesn’t take much these days. I’m seeing the eye doctor in a couple of weeks. It might even be next week. I’m going to have to show him these photos.

I had a great time watching South Park while doing this. I love this show. It’s so obnoxious. Β It makes such good points. My son’s friends watch it, so if he wants to watch it, I’m glad we do it together so we can discuss what he sees. I don’t know if, at almost 13 he quite grasps sarcasm and irony, and I’m happy he will discuss things with me enough to let me talk with him and ask me questions. I love the one where Kanye is making sure Kim isn’t a hobbit, and the one where Stan and Kyle try to beat a million on Guitar Hero. The music is great! Kansas, The Ramones, and I find it okay! Yay!

I’m still having abdominal cramping, but it’s more muscular than digestive, although digestive problems are happening because I’ve been on a chocolate binge lately. It doesn’t take much to upset my system, but it does take a certain amount to satisfy me! Oh well. Gotta live.

A friend asked me an interesting question the other day. I mentioned the cramps, and she misunderstood them for digestive cramps, understandably, and asked if I was going off FODMAP. No, because it was different pain and we sorted that, but I thought, what is after FODMAP? What do I do after that? I can’t seem to tolerate anything forbidden, and many things allowed on that diet and am still mostly nauseated and having heartburn. I am better in terms of bloating and gas, most of the time I know why I am suffering.

I was going to post yesterday, but I decided to nap instead. So selfish. 😁

My head and neck hurts so much. I’m trying to be cheerful, but it’s tough. I feel like my laughter is a little loud and hysterical.

I can vape again, right? I’ve been teaching people in the house how to help with my apparatus (age appropriately, no kids touch drugs, but they can find my discard bin and get my tubing) so I actually will instead of just lying here.

Have a fab day, Zebras! πŸ˜™

The Sleep Monster!

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The sleep monster has had me for the past couple of days. I start nodding off around eleven am, I get up around six am, so five hours isn’t bad… I decide to lie down for an hour or two and I end up sleeping for six or seven hours. I wake up just in time to have a small snack and go back to sleep. It’s very disheartening, because there are so many things I would like to do. We always hope this is temporary, but you just never know how long it’s going to last.

When these sorts of things crop up, we have to make decisions. Decide what our priorities are. Our worlds get smaller. We have to decide what to keep and what to cut. It’s not easy. Friends tend to pull away. I’m to weak to worry right now.

I’ve lost another five lbs. I’m on the verge of 200 at 202. I’d love to break 200, but I’m worried. This week was due to nausea and sleeping through dinner. Five lbs a week is also too much. What can I do? I eat when I can.

I am scheduled for Botox injections on April 4. That should help. Until then… I did receive the stronger Cannabis, both in THC, but mostly CBD, but husband needs to grind it, because even though it’s milled, I like it finer. Picky, picky!

This has taken a lot out of me. I need to rest. Soon.

Happy Zebras! 😘

Gobsmacked!

giphy2OK! First off, let me start by saying the weather here is icky pants. It is +10C today and will be -5C tomorrow, so I am very achy and very medicated. I’m a bit jumbled in my wording, but not inaccurate, if that makes sense. My husband warned me about the weather this morning and told me even his hips were aching. πŸ˜”

OK. So, the other day I had mentioned how I was disappointed with the treatment I had received from the customer service at my marijuana distributor. Just to be absolutely clear, I wasn’t so much upset with the delay in getting the paperwork done, because I happened to peek online, and it was finished on Sunday night. But by the time I remembered to check, I’d had my sleeping pill, and it was kicking in. The issue I was upset with was the seeming lack of care the person had when I was speaking with her. What became a problem is I didn’t receive an email letting me know my order was ready to go, because if it was there Sunday evening, it was likely there since sometime Saturday, and I would have been further up the queue, however… I didn’t get to order until Monday evening because I needed my husband’s help, since I have trouble remembering what I am supposed to buy. This really is probably moot since they are pretty fast, though.

Anyway πŸ˜„ the impressive part is that one of the customer service team at Cannimed reached out to me after seeing my complaint on my blog and asked me about my experience, and I explained how I understand how professionals sometimes need to detach when dealing with chronic pain patients, but when we get that every day it feels like we are being blown off. That not receiving my email was a problem, I counted on that. He then returned my email and said he would follow up with the rep in a non disciplinary way (good!) and find out what their perspective is, which I think is awesome.

The reason this may sound innocuous as a customer service experience that I’m complaining about is because it’s not the standard I’m used to from them. Last week my husband needed the receipts for my expenditure for 2016, he didn’t even know if we could get them. I was sick, so he called. Boom! Less than 10 minutes, I had the email and a follow up call.

What other company Googles themselves so they can provide customer service? I received this email at 10 pm. EST. Maybe 7 or 8 their time? I can’t remember if they are…oh wait 9? They are in Saskatchewan, they shouldn’t have been in the office, anyway. I’m impressed all to heck. They have been super, so this, what seems normal from Walmart, is an aberration from them.

I think, if I can get it by Friday? I should have enough. But my doctor is saying vape at will! I don’t know how this will work.

Yesterday’s nap ended up being all that happened, but it was gorgeous and I loved it. Naps are only for very lucky people who deserve them very much. πŸ˜„πŸ˜„πŸ˜„

My husband has arranged with work to start at 9:00 instead of 7:30 so he can walk our son to school. At least he is getting there. Prayers welcome.

Let’s see what today brings…

Have a gorgeous day, Zebras! 😘

Groan

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Had to miss my doctor appointment this morning. I just couldn’t go. I’m in pain again and I’m just exhausted. I feel like the pain isn’t as bad as it was, like I can cope with it. But it’s still debilitating.

I just had to fill out a bunch of quizzes for my cannabis doctor. The other one retired to do addiction research and so I get a new one. All these questions about am I depressed, and a stupid one about my lifestyle, essentially if I don’t leave my bed I’m a depressed potato, vs. am I a productive member of society? No, better shoot me, then.

Supposed to be a big storm coming, so I hope they don’t cancel. I’m just five days off my renewal, so I don’t have time to waste. Asking if I’ve been eating poorly the last two weeks as a sign of depression… the constant nausea from my illness takes care of that, thank you! So ableist! My other doctor was such an asshole about me being in bed because, my husband finally sussed, he assumed if I was in bed I was sleeping all the time. No! It’s just the only place that’s cushioned enough for me. Listen to my words, doctor!

Anyway, that nap. So tired. Pain makes me sleepy.

Be your wonderful selves, Zebra friends! 😘