I did manage to get a Beauty blog post up for today. I’m pretty pleased with myself. I took the photos when I had a pain respite one day ( I’m having trouble remembering what day it is) and wrote the copy slowly yesterday morning. I slept from 2:00 PM until 9:00, took my medication, looked at my email and futzed around until 11:00 PM. Then slept until 6:00 this morning.
This morning so far isn’t too bad. My neck and jaw is pretty sore. The back of my head hurts, and I have a headache starting to wrap around my head. I’m so nauseated and dizzy, too. I have wicked bedspins, it’s like being in a standing MRI, or when I had that barium swallow. Instead of just spinning flat, I actually feel like I spin top ways, then sideways. It’s awful. Better lying down, best on my side. I’m probably sleeping so much just to be away from it.
Things are definitely worse when I sit or stand, and get progressively worse the longer I am upright.
I do feel much better, though. We are keeping an eye on things, and I am not having as much head pain as I was having. My memory and vision are both not really good either, just a bit hazy, but not alarming. That kind of just woke up feeling.
We’re pretty sure I’m not going to die from this, so we will evaluate on Sunday whether we go to the Emergency Room for evaluation. If I keep improving, then we will just try to be low-key and calm for a few weeks. Otherwise we go.
I took some daytime cold medicine this morning, so maybe this is what’s helping.
I have had so much good support through this. When my brain returns, I will thank you properly and link a great article.
Also, two Facebook friends have admitted to reading my adventures. That matters so much to me, you don’t even know. Sometimes I feel I’m passing through this life unnoticed.
Am I having a mid-life crisis on top of everything? 😁
I’ve found, as an adult, maybe I haven’t been so great at choosing friends. The ones I’ve clung to have kicked me, and the ones I’ve dismissed have shown themselves to be the gems. I’m probably not in a good space and haven’t been for a long time. I don’t think it’s something I can fix at the moment. It’s just a musing.
I need to remember I’m in survival mode at the moment and act accordingly.
I have to put things in perspective. Be selfish. Be okay with being selfish. That may be the toughest part.
I was thinking about it. So what if people think I’m an asshole? For the first time in a long time, I like me. I don’t have the time and energy to explain myself to people who don’t understand or listen anyway. I’ve been exhausting myself trying to be wonderful to people who don’t appreciate it anyway. I’m tired. I’m tired of being nice. I’m tired of sending out care packages and getting a half-hearted ‘thanks’. I’m not a grandmother!
Anyway… rant over. I share a birthday with Dennis Miller. It comes naturally. 😂
OK, Zebra peeps! I’m going to lie really still, because I just moved my neck and it hurts a lot now. Have a great day!